I am not skinny. And I will in no way, shape or form try to convince you, or myself, that I am.
Most of the time, I don't care. It took me a few years to get to the point where I didn't care, but I'm there now.
When I was younger, I did care. One time, a boy's father wouldn't let us date because I was too fat. And I always felt sad when my skinny friends complained about being fat. How fat was I if they were fat? And even now I have moments where I get upset, although these moments mostly happen when I can't find clothes I like in my size.
I won't lie — it wasn't easy to get comfortable in my own skin. Part of it was awkward childhood phases where no one likes their own body, but a lot of it was messages that I received from pop culture. Seventeen provides workout suggestions in each of its issues, the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show is always a reminder that I'm too short and tubby to be Adam Levine's girlfriend and my Tumblr is constantly flooded with thinspirational posts.
Finding something that is body-positive in society's "look this perfect way" mindset is hard. And when I find something that is body-positive, I hold onto it tightly. So I have to commend Meghan Trainor and her song "All About That Bass."
The song, if you haven't heard it yet, boasts that "every inch of you is perfect from the bottom to the top." That's something that is often hard to believe when 58 percent of college-age girls feel pressured to be a certain weight, according to DoSomething.org.
In the song, Trainor talks about magazines using Photoshop and says that people know it's not real, so stop using it. She also talks about how her size doesn't matter because she can still "shake it, shake it like I'm supposed to do."
The song has received some criticism for the line "I'm bringing booty back / go ahead and tell them skinny [expletive] that." Some feel that the song is bashing skinny girls, but it's not. The entire message of the song is that no one — skinny, fat or in between — should have to feel uncomfortable or imperfect in their skin.
Besides being a song that makes me want to dance, it makes me feel good. "All About That Bass" reminds me that it doesn't matter about looking how society likes, but looking how I like. It reminds me that I don't have to look like Barbie, and anyone who is looking for that can "go ahead and move along."
So if you happen to pull up beside me at a red light on Alafaya Trail and I look like I'm casting demons from my body and my car is shaking, don't fret. I just really am all about that bass.